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i sound like a lost kiddo. need a big bear hug.
hello! my dear blog. i have neglected you for so long. jr says he closed down his blog because it was screwing up his lawr so im really scared that itd be the same for me too. but screw it im just going to blog now cos i have some random urge to at the moment. im supp to be sleeping so that i can possibly and hopefully wake up earlier to do some substantial work (which im lagging behind like shit) ok i promise to sleep right after this!

im feeling so dead. as in lifeless. not really enjoying school because...its so tough/im not good at it/i cant feel the motivation to work hard/the competitiveness is scary/feels inadequate and friends are really really nice and all but somehow i dont have the same feeling as when im with my comfy bunch of people. and when i have free time im stressed and when im supp to be studying i daydream. and im turning into a whiny freak with no self-confidence when its supp to be the OTHER WAY ROUND. cmon cmon please be betterrrrrrr and fine as time passes. =( must be like he-ma in the mooncake show where she's so tough and cool and strong and yet has feelings. haha.

on the bright side exams are coming soon = holidays = christmas = pure fun = break from this lifestyle YAY!!!!!!!

hope everyone (esp mummy papi daryl family friends) has a great time as the year draws to an end. dont worry, be happY! (:

k im gonna go listen to better in time by leona lewis.